090115 Finally, The Day~

That morning we went straight to register for my admission.

And we went straight to the maternity ward. I was once again brought into the labor room and was once again strapped into the CTG machine. And after a while my obgyn came.

She put her finger into my uterine to break the waterbag and told me a bad news.

The colour of the water was brownish in color (it is supposed to be clear) which means my baby had passed motion in my tummy. And I have no choice but to do a C-Sec to deliver the baby.

I was lost, I dunno what to do because I really wanted to give naturally because C-Sec means double the money double the pain and maybe triple the healing the process.

But after discussing through with Fire and my mom, we have no choice but to go for C-Sec because giving birth naturally at this time would be too risky for the baby. We don't want to take the risk.

I cried, I cried so hard thinking why does things always go differently as planned?

I started to have suspicious thoughts over my obgyn and the hospital. I suspected that they did all this just to make us agree on C-Sec because that way, they would earn double compare to natural birth.

I cried even harder thinking about the pain that I'm about to go through. I was afraid.

The obgyn and midwife assured me that it will be not be as painful as what I thought it would be. Assured me that sometimes doing C-Sec is a better option compare natural birth.

After calming me down, the Anaesthetician came to explain to me what they'll do so that I don;t feel pain during the operation. I was going to be given injection at my back so that I am numb from waist down. It means, I'll be awake throughout the whole process.

In my mind, I've started to imagine how I'm going to look at the evil doctors and nurses cut trough my tummy to bring the baby out.

On my way to the operation room, I cried again because Fire and my mom were not allowed to go into the room.

In the operation room, the Anaesthetician explained to me every steps that he is going to take. From how he placed a pice of clothes behind my back to he was gonna poke the needle behind my back. And OMG I've always scared of injections.

I felt numb right away right after he injected something into my back.

After that, I was moved into another room where it looks like the place where people are cut open in Grey's Anatomy. I tried to close my eyes and sleep so that I don't have to see what is going on around me but I can't. I was WIDE AWAKE.

Fortunately, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. They actually put a cloth in front of me so that I can't see whatever is happening down there.

My obgyn explained to me on every step that she was going to do with me. And the Anaesthetician were besides me asking me how I was feeling all the time to make sure that I'm okay.

I didn't feel any pain at all, and by the time I heard my baby's first cry I still thought that they were on the way putting the urine tube inside me. -_-"

I miraculously felt asleep after the midwife showed me my baby and his genitals.

When I woke up, they had done cleaning me up and was ready to move me into my room.

On the way to my room, I saw Fire and my mom and I knew that the nightmare is over and my baby boy has come out into this world safe and sound.

There's still no pain and I can barely move my legs. I was feeling really hungry but I was told not to take any food yet because I might throw up or something. So the nurses got me to drink plain water.

When I'm in my room (1005B), I was once again wide awake with no feeling of sleepiness at all. I told Fire and mom the process in the operation room, how they took out the baby without me realizing it at all. How everything is done with NO PAIN.

The services in Pantai Cheras Medical Centre (PCMC) was excellence. The nurses came every 20-30 minutes to check my blood pressure, body temperature, my wound and also the padding (as my mentrual started already) to make sure that I feel comfortable.

After like 1-2 hours, I got the nurse to take the Energy Bar from my bag. And I started eating my first meal! No vomiting, Thank God!

After that, I started eating dinner like normal.

The first time I really see and touch my baby was when they brought him over for breastfeeding. YES! I'm going for Complete Breastfeeding but the first day, I got no milk at all. I just let my boyboy sucked my nipples as they say, his suckings can stimulate my breast to produce more milk. ^^

The feeling of holding my own baby was unexplainable. It's like.. I dunno how to explain it but the feeling was really good. I felt really grateful that our baby turns out to be so beautiful and active and most important of all, healthy. It worth every money that we spent, every pain that I've gone through, everything.